Thursday, September 24, 2009

Does anything change?

So college has started and it has been quite awhile since I've made a post. I'd like to blame it on the all the work involved with school, but that's not entirely the case. Last time I posted I made a note of an oncoming bought with depression. I've been waiting to see what was going to happen. Truth is I'm starting to sink pretty low. It seems paradoxical but the more time I spend with my "friends" the lower I feel. Between seeing their successful relationships and then pondering my inability to establish one of substance, it's like I have no choice but to be filled with a sense of inadequacy. I can't connect to another human. All my relationships exist in the superficial and nothing is changing.

This is a short post... more later perhaps.