Thursday, September 24, 2009

Does anything change?

So college has started and it has been quite awhile since I've made a post. I'd like to blame it on the all the work involved with school, but that's not entirely the case. Last time I posted I made a note of an oncoming bought with depression. I've been waiting to see what was going to happen. Truth is I'm starting to sink pretty low. It seems paradoxical but the more time I spend with my "friends" the lower I feel. Between seeing their successful relationships and then pondering my inability to establish one of substance, it's like I have no choice but to be filled with a sense of inadequacy. I can't connect to another human. All my relationships exist in the superficial and nothing is changing.

This is a short post... more later perhaps.

1 comment:

  1. I dont think your going to find out what you are supposed to be until you get there. Depression does change you; some advice my doctor gave me... Hang around people that make you feel good. It really does help. And remember you don't have to be like your friends be yourself. The grass is always greener in the other side.. seriously. If your going through a rough time right now quit being so hard on yourself. Take care of yourself. Do something that makes you feel good. Although its hard when your depressed. You are going to have hard times and watching others in their perfect life seems to make it worse. Just remember everything is not what it seems. You will be who you will be because of who you have been. Go a few minutes at a time right now. Live for just the day. That helps me. Take care.